I can’t see the bigger picture. I have to trust the One who can.
It’s one thing to know that you’re going into a challenging season. You get prepared for it. You get mentally ready. But what about the difficulties that we don’t see coming? The unexpected crisis that catches us off-guard? Sometimes, it can seem so overwhelming that it almost knocks the wind right out of us.
The Scripture says that we shouldn’t be surprised by fiery trials. That’s because the forces of darkness would not be fighting against you if they didn’t know that God has something amazing in your future! Sometimes, those unexpected difficulties are just a sign that you’re on the right track. It’s always darkest just before the dawn appears. The enemy always fights the hardest when you are closest to your breakthrough. The key is to stay the course and keep fighting the good fight of faith. Keep your joy and keep declaring God’s Word over your future. God has promised that you will overcome every obstacle. You will defeat every enemy, and right now, I declare that you will fulfill your destiny in Jesus’ name!
I claim it. I CLAIM IT! I DO! I WILL FULFILL GOD’S WILL FOR ME! :)
I am lost in a sea of readings, tasks, and work.
I still can’t find my niche in the Pol Sci world. I still don’t know if I belong here. Nevertheless, I have learned to love Pol Sci. This field made me feel like I could make an actual difference in the society. I am no longer ignorant, that is certain, of how the society works, how our political system works, and why everything is going wrong. It’s just that…I feel so dumb all of a sudden. I feel this suffocating sense of competition. It feels so wrong. It’s as if everybody knows what they are doing, like this is really their first choice—to study politics. They’re living, breathing, and loving it. I love it too, but I’m having a hard time living and breathing it. But this is not only happening to me in Pol Sci. I’m having a hard time living and breathing in life in general.
This year just feels so wrong to me. All the drastic changes, all the new places and people…it just feels so different, and it scares me.
But I’m not afraid to jump. I am not, because I know I don’t have a choice anyway.
I just wish it would become really better soon. It’s been better than before, but it’s still hard, and I’m so tired of having a hard time. I don’t know what to do anymore. Most of the time, I just want to disappear and free all the hardships that I am experiencing, but that option is not available in my life.
God, help. Reveal something…anything, because I know that if I find out who You are, I will find out who I am too.
Aaaaaahhhh. <3 Truly, God is the answer to everything.
Ang sarap mag-stay sa presence Niya. Ramdam mo talaga yung warm embrace ng Ama. Alam niyo yung ganoong feeling? Haaaay. >:)<
Last Saturday, nag-CCF (Children’s Community Fellowship) sa church. Ang saya-saya sa pakiramdam, kasi yung kids, kahit papaano, na-a-identify yung church as something good, something that gives back to people. Siguro medyo hindi lang naging effective yung film na pinanuod namin sa kanila kasi (1) heavy topic (the life of Jesus) and (2) it wasn’t exactly kid friendly hahaha the sounds were scary, it was sort of dark, and it wasn’t a Superbook-type of film. Sana pagdating ng araw, maintindihan nila kung bakit namin ‘to ginagawa, kung bakit dapat tanggapin si Jesus bilang savior at tagapagligtas, kung bakit pinadala dito si Jesus in the first place. (Speaking of which, I AM SIMPLY ASHAMED OF THE WAY I ACTED FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS. I APOLOGIZE. I TRULY APOLOGIZE. I failed the Lord. But somehow, He still loves me, and I’m thankful for that.)
Last Sunday naman, hindi ako nakaattend ng morning service. (I AM VERY ASHAMED. THERE WAS NO EXCUSE.) Nagpunta na lang ako sa church at 12 noon. After ng practice ng choir, practice ng worship team ng 2 pm for the youth service AT 3 PM (GRABE PROCRASTINATION HUHU SORRY LORD). Everything was going wrong (We started late, there were only a few of us, and there was no LCD projector huhu yung lyrics mygahd ANG HIRAP GRABE). So when the worship team started singing, I just poured my heart out to God, sabi ko kay Lord, “Lord, Ikaw na ang bahala sa lahat”. And, of course, after all that happened to me, grabe, confess lang ako nang confess sa Kanya. And then, when it was my turn para mag-songlead (non-stop praise and worship kasi yun, tatlo kaming songleaders, I was the last one), I welcomed the presence of God and the Holy Spirit, tapos parang biglang nagkaroon ng energy ang youth, perhaps dahil natapos na yung unang gumamit ng LCD projector kaya pinahiram na sa amin, so yaaay may lyrics nang naka-flash, makakakanta na ang youth and ‘di na kailangan i-dictate ang lyrics para makakanta sila (SOBRANG HIRAP HUHU HALOS NAIYAK AKO SA SOBRANG HIRAP kasi back-up ako nung unang dalawang songleader, so naging burden sa akin yung pagsu-supply ng lyrics sa congregation, but then, hindi ko rin kabisado yung ibang kanta huhu ang faiiiil). Also, nagsayawan at nagpuri talaga lahat. Sobrang saya. And when the Lord poured down His Spirit, sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam. It’s like you can actually feel Him hugging you. Sobrang saya ko nun kasi parang nawala kahit papaano lahat ng burden ko at naramdaman ko that God cares for me, that God is still there and He will never leave.
God has always dropped me little hints that He still cares for me and that He misses me and wants me back. Siguro kung nakinig ako nung una pa lang, hindi ko na siguro kinailangang maranasan yung depression na naranasan ko, at hindi na Niya siguro kinailangang gawin yun.
But the past is past, and so I leave it all to God to forgive me for everything evil I did, and I am so grateful na kahit sobrang malayo ang loob ko sa Kanya noon, hindi Siya sumuko sa akin. Not even a bit.
Salamat, Lord. <3
reblog and make a wish!
this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)
OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.
THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.
The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.
AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.
THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.
I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS
LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL
IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS
holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS.
I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT
SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP
WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????
ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE
THE BOY I FELL I LOVE WITH LEFT TO TRAVEL THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND HAS BEEN GONE NOW FOR 3 MONTHS. WE HAVENT SPOKEN SINCE BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO MAKE HIM FEEL TRAPPED TO ME AND NOT ENJOY HIS TIME SO I WAITED FOR HIM TO CONTACT ME FIRST. I SAW THIS ON A PARTICULARLY LOW DAY WHEN I WAS MISSING HIM SO MUCH I CRIED FROM THE PAIN, GUYS I REALLY LOVE HIM, SO I THOUGHT MEH WHAT THE FUCK, AND WISHED HE WOULD JUST LET ME KNOW HE WAS OKAY.
HE FUCKING CALLED ME 20 MINUTES LATER
20 FUCKNG. MINUTES. LATER.
GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN. AND ITS IN THIS POST.
I wish for someone to leave something in my ask.
OKAY SO I ASKED FOR A HEDGEHOG AND NOW GUESS WHO HAS A PET HEDGEHOGUM I DID THIS LIKE SERIOSLY LAST WEEK SOMETHING BASIC AND IT HAPPENED???
I WISH THAT MY SHORT HAIR WILL TURN OUT GOOD PLEASE
Hahaha. All the stories are lovely. I made a wish. Hope it turns out great. <3
Last time turned out great. SO I DO HAVE TO REBLOG THIS AGAIN.
I HAVE TO REBLOG THIS FOR A FRIEND. PLEASE LORD, SHE’S BRAVE ENOUGH TO TAKE ON THIS ADVENTURE. LET HER DO IT.
I just pray for God’s will to happen to my life. None of my wishes, but His direction in my life. I’ve had enough of wanting and wanting and wanting things that are not supposed to be mine. I pray for Your will, Father.
I still miss you sometimes but I’m not drowning anymore and maybe they were right when they said it gets better (via missinyouiskillingme)
Yes, it does get better. <3